Since you like the book so much I was wondering if you would be interested in a real life experience I had today…
So i have been out of town for a few days – I left Monday morning early before Aidan woke up and then I was supposed to be home Thursday night and Aidan was going to wait up for me but my flight got delayed and I didn’t make it home until after noon the next day….
When Aidan was brought home by his Grandaddy he hugged me and wouldn’t let me go. He is – kind of Ok with touch with just a few people – me, his father and then it decreases significantly with what he will tolerate. He is most comfortable with his best friend James followed by his grandparents and even then he will only allow a fist bump instead of a hug.
But when we saw each other we stood hugging for a few minutes. And then he pulled back and I knew it was a lot so of course I understood and he went to read his book (he LOVES to read like no one I have ever known). I had just enough time to setup my computers and get back to work when he walked into my office and climbed in my lap and wrapped his arms around my neck. I knew what he needed so I held him tightly and rocked – I have rocking chairs all over the house for him – just in case.
He let me hold him for close to 15 minutes. I couldn’t control it – I feel weak for it but he comes by all this pretty naturally if you get my meaning. And I cried. I was so happy to be right there in that moment with him allowing me to hold and comfort him.
I had tried to hold it back but I had tears streaming down my face I was so happy and I had truly missed him so much.
He looked up at me and touched my tear tracks.
A: You are leaking
M: <soft smile>
A: But you are happy
M: Yes, I am so happy right now. How do you know.
A: Your eyes are soft and alive and your face isn’t tense.
< he signed deeply and I could see him choosing his words>
A: I do not understand. I do not understand how you can leak and feel happy at the same time.
M: You always make me happy. Sometimes my happiness is so powerful that I don’t know how to process it and sometimes I leak when I am that happy. Leaking doesn’t always mean you are sad….sometimes you leak because you feel so much, so strongly that it has to come out in some way.
A: I like making you happy. I think I might like making you so happy you leak.
M: I like it too baby. I like it too.
The whole time he was softly wiping away my tears.
And I kissed his head and he smiled at me like I have never seen before and then he stiffened and jumped off my lap.
A: I am going to read. I like to make you happy but I feel strongly right now. I need to go read.
He got as far as the door to my office…
A: I am so happy you are home. I love you.
M: I love you to baby.